15 Minute Fasted Finger Flow
Okay 10:07 the time has started. Let thy fingers flow. No backspacing. I promise. Unless it’s habitual then I’ll let it flow. But, there will be no writing and looking at the sentence then backspacing because of my internal judgments of what I’m writing. I think the most interesting writing happens for the sake of writing. Not for the sake of the readers or the “target audience”.
I think by letting the fingers go and publishing it on the internet I’m being pretty vulnerable. But maybe there are still some filters up in my mind that I’m not quite yet willing to bust through.
One of these filters is language. I’ve never used a cuss word on any of my channels. When I went on the Worst Bakers show, they bleeped me out even though I’m pretty darn sure I didn’t actually cuss. My momma was sad about this/kinda embarrassed.
So what is cussing. It’s saying a word that has a “bad” meaning. Is the meaning actually bad? Perhaps it depends on context. Maybe it’s only bad if you make it. It’s only a sound when you boil it down. I was raised never to cuss because it sounds bad and goes against my religion. I think it says somewhere in the ol book of James not to cuss. The mouth is extremely powerful. You can make or break somebody just through the words that flow out of it. So yes, language and your words should be filtered, right?
Maybe.. Doing and saying things without thinking can get you in a lot of trouble, but you are just being yourself right? I was just reading “Skin in the Game” by Nassim Nicholas Taleb and he talks about cursing on Twitter. Cursing publicly basically displays freedom. It signals that you can do whatever you want. You’re not bound to anybody but yourself and your personal brand.
So maybe I’ll type the word shit. Oh shit, I did it! How liberating. Nah, not really. Actually kind of. I grew up in a very conservative home. I remember a kid saying that a guy was stoned and I asked, “did it hurt?”. I used to not cuss at all ever because I somehow thought that I was a better person somehow by not cussing. I’m pretty sure Australia has much different cussing rules like for radio or tv. I don’t know I might have to look that up after this if I remember. But I love Australians. They let fucks fly like it doesn’t even matter. Holy crap did you see what i just typed! Oh well. It’s done, I already told you that I can’t backspace. I’m just putting it all out there finger flow, finger flow. But ya, back to them Aussies. Like every single thing out there, it just narratives that place meaning on things. Culture is beautiful, but maybe we all have to see through it. But maybe not actually. It’s nice to be in a bubble. It’s safe to think you know how the world works. Frankly, it’s the easy way out.
How much do I really want to know about the world. It’s a scary place out there. The more I travel, the more I get to see how people live their lives and the smaller I feel and I feel guilty about my easy life. I just watched Parasite last night. I’m pretty darn stoked that I understood most of it even though it was in Korean with Spanish subtitles. Anyways, if you’ve seen it, you get to have a glimpse of the vast difference in how people live. And it’s just crazy to me how blind I can be to this kind of life. It’s scary! Truly scary. I couldn’t imagine living like this. The scene with the toilet spewing out dookie really got to me. Getting out of poverty has got to be so hard. However, I am optimistic. The world is improving despite the news. We got this as humans. We’re figuring it out at a rate faster than we’ve ever known. Now it’s a matter of putting into practice what we have learned.
Okay what time is it.. 10:23. I did it. Now I’m gonna go tourist around and distract myself all day from this fast that I’m doing. Should be fun. First I’m gonna go read this and edit some typos. 10:28 post read thoughts — That’s all I wrote? I gotta type faster. Maybe I’ll sneak a 20 minute one in before 30 days is up. Ha, it’s gonna be so much fun reading these in 10 years. Okay. Adios:)
